HUGE bummer :(

I waited and waited since last time I wrote for Dan's boss to come back from vacation and for Dan to talk with her about OUR vacation at Easter. Of course I was a bit in a hurry because KLM had special deals up until January 31st (booking time) for flights before June 30th.

But guess what... Dan isn't gonna get time off from work between April and June because inspections are expected and the labcrew they have are just enough to keep the place running. I was like... I can't even explain it. I wanted to break stuff, yell, cry...whatever. I wanted to die :( I miss him so so much and I have no idea how things will work out, all I have is those short vacations for now.

Some friends suggested I should go in July but I have already done summer in Chicago, twice really, the start and finish of summer. And it's hot and muggy. So I thought of something else... Why doesn't Dan come overhere in July or August and I go to Chicago for his birthday in November and Thanksgiving?

He thought it was a good idea too and it's an extra incentive to get his papers ready! Plus he expects a tax return and papers would make that easier too. So no more mercy, I am gonna PUSH him to get to work on that! Instead of asking once a month how he's doing I am gonna ask at least twice a week :') He's gonna have to deal with lawyers, or as he calls them: liars REALLY soon :p

Oh well. I was in dire need of some shopping therapy so I went to the mall to get another satin duvet cover, since they're on sale. I really went for the aqua colored one since I already have an aqua undersheet and pillowcases but the store had run out so I decided on dark gray and silver and black pillowcases, I already had a black undersheet. It's gonna look so cool with my black fun fur mink blanket and pillows.

I also went for a pair of glasses. I really want a pair of Ray Ban Clubmasters, for years already. But I found out that those including lenses are gonna cost me about €310,- so I am kinda thinking about that. Gonna see if health insurance and Social Services are gonna chip in :p If they do I might just get them ;) They're cute, purple and white.

Well, my shopping therapy kinda worked, I am cooking now and making my bed with the new set of sheets and hoping Dan will be here this summer...

You all just have a great day, and cya soon again!

Something to look forward to...?

Yesterday Dan asked me when Easter is gonna be this year. I told him it's April 24&25, no idea if at least Easter is 2 days in the States like here in Europe :p It's a late Easter this year and we were talking a bit back and forth and suddenly he asked....

'How would you like to spend Easter overhere with me this year?' Stuuuuuuupid question :') I would LOVE to of course! He's gonna see if he can get 10-14 days off at work and will get back at me with that news Monday...

Wow, 10 to 14 days to spend together! Can't even imagine how wonderful that's gonna be! Maybe we can get some more things off the 'what to do in Chicago' list, inside things, because on my question what the weather's usually like late April Dan said: rainy.

Well he said:'You know that painting of Seurat, Sunday in the Park? That's what Chicago's like in April!' I happen to know that painting, and I love it. If Chicago in spring is like that, I really can hardly wait to go :)

Doesn't that just look lovely? I think he really meant all the little points to be raindrops, but, I can't be bothered :p Chicago is great any time of the year, I have been there now in summer and fall so spring will be a nice change :)

He also promised me better accomodations this time, no more Esquire Motel after my last visit there. I said I'd sleep in a shed if necessary, and the Esquire wasn't that bad apart from the broken airco that never got mended and the asshole that took me for a 'working girl' :p

Well I have been looking up some ticket prices, nothing really nice but that must be because Easter is in the middle, looks like I might be flying KLM this time instead of United. But let's just wait until Dan knows more...

I am just so excited, something to look forward to finally!

You all have a great day, and I'll keep you informed :)

Have a VERY Happy New Year!!!

Hello y'all, I'm back... I was a tad too depressed to write but I decided I had to get over it and pick myself up again, and so I did.

My New Year's Eve wasn't too much fun. I was gonna go to the party at my friends house but her husband invited my ex-husband and I had to stay home. Well he's a client of their accountancy firm so I guess paying customers come first :p Too bad I heard it just the day before... but oh well, I got over it.

I had loads of food and Dan had the day off so I spent my time online with him, and I even waited until midnight his time so I went to bed at about 7:30 am :')

And then it dawned on me again. I am divorced, don't have a house of my own, don't have a job... *SIGH* I keep on looking for jobs but I am either too old, overqualified, underqualified or lacking in experience. Or just no luck, like the job at Social Services, I got an email that they are interviewing internal candidates right now. I saw that as a big NO but my son said: 'Mom, at least you're still in the running!' Positive outlook... I would LOVE to  get that job!

At least my tax money has come in, so my ticket to Chicago is covered for this year. I asked Dan when he wants me to come over but we haven't decided yet. And he says I am so good at living at a budget... Well I am scared the money will just slowly dry up and disappear :') Sylvia said this year we're not gonna wait that long with my taxes, as soon as certain papers arrive she wants me to bring them over and arrange for my pocketmoney ;)

I had a 'big fight' with my babygirl last week. I was adjusting some stuff on FaceBook last year, added some relatives and stuff. And somehow my status changed from 'in a relationship' to 'engaged'. I must have clicked wrong somewhere or something. I really only noticed it because I started getting reactions. Of course it doesn't help that I have set my FB language to Pirate English :')

Anyhow, babygirl got 'congratulated' by a friend, and threw a hissy fit. I can imagine of course, especially since her brother told me not to tell her anything yet, inform her of my plans as late as possible. Because, yeah well, it is kinda true :p Dan and I decided to get married so we can be together and that seems to be the only way to get me in the States permanently, since I won't get a work visa.

So I gave in. I apologized to my daughter, changed my FB status again (which lead to questions from the same people that reacted to my 'engagement'). I know, I am a wuss. But I did tell her that her dad and I have been divorced for over a year now and that it's time to move on! Oh well, at least I don't have to keep it a secret anymore :p And we're only planning to marry 'for the good cause'. We've both been married before and we'd both prefer to just live together. But that seems to be impossible alas.

Oh well... A new year has started, new chances all around. I decided that my Year From Hell really started when I got laid off last year in May so I still have a few months to go. But I have survived up until now and will go on doing so ;)

You all just have a wonderful New Year! May almost all your dreams come true, and may there always be at least something to wish for, because life without dreams is so boring!