The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth...

I had a LONG talk with Dan last night. I really wanted to know what the hell was going on, why he doesn't want to marry me. I did more research and it turns out that, if I go to the US on a work visa, I will lose my Dutch citizenship in the end and I have to say, I am quite attached to that. While, if I get married to an American, I will get an American citizenship and keep the Dutch one.

Turns out he had his own personal reasons which he told me. He felt quite humiliated because it was stuff his Polish Opa taught him a man never troubles his woman with. But I told him Opa is long dead and we live in 2011 now, and we have a relationship based on equality!

Luckily it is all stuff that can be worked out, and no reason for me at all to feel personally rejected. Which, with my lovely self-confidence, is a big relief of course ;) It is just all gonna take a bit longer than expected but I'll be leaving for the US in the end. And that's what it's all about! (And I will be keeping my Dutch citizenship too *\o/* )

Yesterday my contract for my new job arrived. As I expected it was a 6 month, 0-hours contract which ends on 1/31/2012. When I go to the supermarket I'll copy it and send it to Social Services. I hope I can get to 32 hours FAST so I won't be needing the money from Social Services anymore and I can save some money and have my scooter repaired :p And save for my next trip to Chicago of course!

And of course I will still be searching for a job in or near Enkhuizen. There are some callcenters in a city near Enkhuizen but I will keep that as a last resort, since they never give you fulltime work right away. So either I have to have some money saved or just find another job.

Dan is still planning to come overhere. No word on when yet but this year for sure! It's been 13 months since I saw him last, well, saw him in real life and I miss him so much!

It has been a while but at long last a lot is happening in my life again. I have learned a lot in the time I was home jobless, most importantly I learned to live with little money so I can go on doing that and save, save, save! I have never had as little money as I had the past year and a half and I managed quite nicely.

I will try to update my blog regularly again, but no promises ;)

Cy'all soon again! *Hugz*

Anna

Yup, I'm back!

Nope, sorry, I didn't get Raptured :')

I was just a little bit bored and depressed and stuff because I have been without work for so long :p So I have a good reason to start writing again BECAUSE I LANDED A JOB!!!! Yes, a real paid one even :') Ok, it's not the best of jobs and somehow I am even a little bit ashamed because I am once again a callcenter agent.

Yes, I am one of those annoying people that call you when you least expect it to sell you something you really don't need. The callcenter I am gonna work for now is a lot bigger than the one I worked at before and the desks are nice and roomy and have little walls so they kinda look like cubicles. In my first month there I will work 12 hours a week although I will try to get that to 32 hours a week asap. And my first assignment there is working for a computermagazine I happen to know and like. So not a bad start! They already asked me for a multilingual project for a travel agent so I can use my English and Italian :)

Other news... I won't be going to the US on a fiancée visa because Dan absolutely doesn't wanna get married. The #@#&%^&%#^!!! At first I felt really personally rejected but then I thought: I am not gonna take everything personal! Dan is looking for a job for me, so let's all hope and pray he finds one soon :p

In the meantime: I can't really stay here living at my son's house. It's been almost 2 years now and still no hope for a house of my own... So my sweet sister Andrea invited me to come live at her house in Enkhuizen. So I'll need to find a job there and mooooove! My son thinks it's gonna be easy peasy apparently, I've been looking for a week now (ever since Andrea invited me) and my darling little boy calls me every now and then and asks: 'Well, found a job yet? ' *Sigh* Oh well...

Anyway...I am kinda hopeful again and happy I found a job at least! Time to crawl out from under my rock again ;)

Have a great day !!!!

Hugz, Anna