Yay, life is wonderful... (is it?)

Sorry peepz...Didn't really mean to but you want the truth from me right? I am sad, so very sad. I don't like my new place, it's a pimped up garage ffs. It's cold and drafty and...it has no internet! And I still have to pay the same amount of money that I had to pay in the much bigger and sunnier place I used to live in. Pisses me off really. The other place has internet too. 

But the landlord has a conflict with City Council. Something about not being allowed to divide a store/house into appartments. He had me moving in no time, I got notice one week in advance and the f*ck even 'offered to help me move' so he didn't have to wait until my kids/friends had time.

Well that resulted in me still not having my wardrobe (I mean the piece of furniture, not my clothes) and my antique bed and deskchair being damaged. And I still don't have internet although landlord promised I could leech from a neighbour. Yeah, riiiight.

I put my lawyer on it. He sent landlord a letter stating my complaints (for example about the door being rotten and drafty and not burglar-safe) and according to my lawyer landlord called him and made a lot of promises, internet should be connected October 16, heating and warm water are being looked at October 25 and he's gonna paint my door (eerrhhmmm...okay?)

It's just...well you know... Just when I think I can't get any lower I get another kick in the behind that gets me another step down. I was whining at Dan about my year from Hell taking almost 4 years now and he admitted he fibbed. A year from Hell definitely takes longer than one year :p Oh well.

You all just try to stay happy, don't let me get you down ;)

Hugz, Anna

On the move again...

It's been only 5 months since I came to live where I live now and I was happy here. I got to know the neighbourhood (a little), found our where the best shops are and the doctor and farmacy, got registered and I have rent allowance.

But now everything is going to change. Apparently there is something wrong with the legality of this place being divided into 2 appartments, the city council wants it to be a one family home. So I will have to move (or live without a kitchen and bathroom since city council wants those removed :p ).

Yesterday my landlord took me to see the new place he has for me instead of my sweet home. I was a bit...appalled. He said I could have it for the same price (yay, NOT) but it is a lot smaller than where I live now. It does have 2 little perks: it has an opening window and a slighty better bathroom than the current place.

But I am so happy the kids didn't bring me any furniture yet, because that just won't fit :p I can get my bed inthere, and my desk and wardrobe, and the 2 bookcases I have and the little dresser and of course my fridge and stove and washing machine. But that's about it.

The lady that lives there now saw the disappointment on my face and said: 'Just see it as something temporary!' She also told me where to look for council houses and she found one pretty quickly too. She also adviced me to react on 55+ houses, sometimes they don't get to fill them and others can come in then.

Oh well, I will have to pack up and go again. A very sweet collegue of mine promised she will help me and the landlord is going to help me move. I am kind of starting to feel like a hobo of sorts :p But I am sure everthing will be allright in the end. I don't know how and I don't know when but it'll all work out for sure!

Have a great day!

Hugs, Anna

Black eyed Susan

Today I got a nice surprise at work. One of my coworkers had been sick last week and she was back again. I really had missed her so I was very happy to see her! Don't know if she'll agree but I think I can call her a friend ;)

When it was time to go upstairs to work she took me by the hand and led me upstairs, took me to her cubicle. Where she gave me a very pretty plant, a Black Eyed Susan!

Had to go back to my own cubicle with that big plant and got questions and congratulations from many other coworkers. I had it in my cubicle all day and I am sure it brought me luck because I made 10 sales today on the newspapers.

Now it is next to my door. I think I should go to the garden center to buy a pretty pot for it. So even though I don't have a real garden or even any personal outside space, I have my stepdad's little garden (he gave me a big pot planted with pretty pink plants and ivy) and now Susan too :D I can make this work!

It's my party...and I cry if I want to :(

Had a lovely day today. It was my birthday last Tuesday so my kids decided to visit me today to celebrate. It has been since March that I have seen Nina and since Layla's birthday in February that I have seen son-in-law Erik and of course darling little Layla. My son Evan has been here more often, much to my delight.

So they arrived rather early. My house still isn't really a house (hardly any furniture) but at least that gave Layla plenty room to play. And that she did ;)

I was a little bit scared she wouldn't want to come close to me since she hardly knows me but instead she was very open to me. I still say she has her mother's looks and her uncle's character... Such a fun little girl! And Nina is an excellent mama! (And Erik a relaxed dad!)

We took her to the playground across the street and I really can't say who had more fun: Layla or the grown-ups ;) I am so proud of my children! And I love little Layla so much!!!

And then they had to leave again, Layla had to eat and sleep in time and it takes them almost an hour to get home. As always, the visit was way too short. I miss my kids and I miss my granddaughter and I felt so alone again here in this city where I hardly know anyone.

Oh well, let's just say this is good exercise for when I live in Chicago (Dan still says that's gonna happen :p )

You all have a great day and don't forget to say you love the ones you're with!

Hugz, Anna

Guess what, I think I'll be back ;)

It's been almost a year now since I 'quit' this blog. A lot has happened in that time. For instance, I am working again and I have moved closer to work and live in Alkmaar now.

My first 'real' house since the divorce! A little studio but near work, near the city centre, near the shops.
Still feels like camping a bit, don't have much furniture yet but that'll come in time...

I am working as a call center agent again, almost 6 months now. I like the work, I like my collegues and next week we're having a company BBQ.

Dan and I are still 'an item' although things aren't running as smoothly as they could. He's still struggling with his papers. I'm planning to go see him in November this year.

And my coaching practice...haven't done too much about that now, alas. With work and the new city I am living in... Oh well, I did that mostly with the US in mind anyway!

So, I thought about starting to blog again...and here's the first one!

Hugz, Anna