Hello...I'm back :)

Me and my pretty mom, summer of 1962

A whole lot has happened since my last post here... I left you all with the bad news about that job I finally landed. Well, they never came back to me! And frankly, looking back...I don't really care :p 

The Bell's palsey, the job, the trouble with the emigration, the 'homelessness'...it all got me spiraling into a depression. And I was worried about my mom too, she usually liked to have a chat on Messenger but lately she seemed to avoid me.

Then came the really bad news... In the night of October 23rd-24th mom had a cerebral infarction and a heart infarction. She was paralized on the right side of her body and that left her completely helpless. She always loved to talk and her voice was already taken away from her, and now her right hand- which she used to write and communicate with us- didn't work anymore either.

Of course that added to my depression too, and left me completely numb. I got all kinds of complaints that later proved to be stress related.

Of course in the family we communicated a lot about mom, and soon we all came to the conclusion that she only wanted one thing: to die in peace. Sadly it's not an easy thing to hear, and even harder to help her. But we all understood why she wanted to go and were in peace with it. Things were set in motion to get help for her.

Then came Januari 1st. ... New Year's Day. Late in the evening I got a call from Willem, mom's husband: mom had passed away peacefully, alone. Just like she wanted. Us kids came together at her and Willem's house and we prepared a lovely send off for her. I am sure she watched all of us with a big smile on her face. Instead of mourning her death, we celebrated her life!

Since then, life has taken a new turn for me! 'Strangely' my depression disappeared completely. I asked Social Services permission to start a Life Coach course but got the answer that there wasn't any money in the reintegration budget for that. But we all inherited a little money from mom, as an advance really, and that helped me pay for the course!

And of course I finally had money to book my ticket to Chicago, such a relief I didn't have to ask Dan and Patrizia for it :p I also got some new suitcases and money to buy a nice present for...my lovely granddaughter! I got her a cute gold bracelet with her name engraved in it.

Yes, because Februari 7 my daughter Nina delivered a beautiful baby girl! Her name is Layla and she will be baptised Layla Alessandra Cristina. I wasn't too sure about becoming a grandmother but somehow, after she was born... ;) I am a really proud granny! I have loads and loads of pictures of the little girl and have been to see her a few times already.

Me and little Layla, the day after she was born.

Life goes on... I will be leaving for a 2 week vacation in Chicago on April 27, when I come back I am going to move to Enkhuizen so my son finally gets his house back. In a few months I can start my own practise as a life coach, and I plan to be mainly web based. My vacation is supposed to be the last before my emigration to Chicago, Dan feels like he has to audition ;) Well, as far as I am concerned, he's hired, haha.

So...I am back :D I hope you like it! If you do, leave me some feedback please... ;)

Have a great day you all!